Forgive and forget

Sometimes in workplace or where ever, there are conflicts among working staffs. It all caused by 1 simple mistake, miscommunication. Not to mention, attitude also plays its role as well. Having to forgive and forget to one another will makes the world better. Probably I was too emotional last night. But it all happen because I started it. If I did not started the childish game with him, none of this would have happened, it could be we still able to joke with one another. Starting shift was an awkward moment when I saw him. Not a single word that I can think of to greet him. It was like as if a barrier between him and I. As time passed, he held out his hand and apologize for what he has done. From that moment, I can sense back a friendship bond between us. It was a split second that the memory of last night was erased. I, too, held out my hand to apologize as well. It felt like a very touched moment. So then, now we are friends once again. Hope the same mistake wil not repeat itself.

PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear Blog, sometimes I really dun understand wat the world wants from me. I'm so pissed off. I promised my mom that i would not say the F word in any of my social network. But today, now, I'm pissed and I posted a F word in it.

First, I made a staff got angry wit me. For just a small matter, he make it a hoohaa in the work place. Isn't it childish? Asking me to be a man and settle with him face to face. IN the other way, calling the manager and file a complain about me and the person in charge in restaurant. Wat is so man about it? Saying the word Fuck to me is not gonna show u that u are more man?

Then came about quarreling with my gf about this matter.

Wat in the world is happening? Should i js drive a 100km/h of speed and just bang into a big giant truck? Or stand in the middle of the road and let an accident happen? Or keep eating myself to fat so i can die naturally? Or run into a forest and let things happen by itself? Wat is it???!!!!! I'm pissed!!!! PISSED!!!!!PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Return to Blog?

Hi readers. Must have been a long time since you stopped reading my blog. Probably can say I went through my life with less problems which I think nothing much to share in here. But recently, things happens.

Let's say, working at my current place is really enjoying. But then some people will just trying to out-smart you by saying something you do not wish to listen. Example, setting a responsibility to a person which means that person will use his own ways to manage his task. Sigh~~~ Standards kills oneself. Something I wish that they would be more flexible when they work.

Wow, didn't know when I start to blog back, it's already gonna be 2.30am. Havta wake early later to go for 'Ching Ming', Chinese prayers. Hope to blog here soon again. See ya.

When???

After so many days, I thought I can get over it. But... It takes up a whole lot of sacrifice in order for me to let go of it. When can I end all these???

Too DEEP

I don't know. I don't know why. When I'm in the hole of unhappiness, why didn't you pull me back up? Why? Why do you keep pushing me back into it? I know you are an independent person. I am too. When you say you will go out with me, I'm super happy. Even if my friend did plan an outing with me, I'd still cancel theirs & go to yours. Cause I knew that we can hardly had a chance to see each other. So whenever you are free with me, I'll be the one there for you. But what about me? I don't know. It seems that friends is more important. More important than me. I don't know. How many days can others see me happy? I meant days, not minutes. Haven't been a day I'm happy. I know you are busy. I know that you know I can take care of myself. But I really don't know what to do. I always tell my friend that you love me a lot, you care for me, you really do find time for me. However, IT WAS A LIE? Am I wrong? I'm afraid. Afraid to ask you out. Afraid being reject again. Other people can look down on me. They can say bad about me. BUT HOW CAN YOU??? Thought YOU should be the one supporting me like how I supported you? How come I don't feel it? When I'm alone, were you there for me? I'm sick of sitting here in my room all the time when I'm at home. I rather be with you even if just in a house. I rather spend time with you watching television, eating together or even chat together. I can't feel it's happening anymore. I can't. Simple to say, I'll do my things, you'll do your things. We'll still be together. But... I really do hope it won't be ended by me. Like how you hope so. To be honest with you, I DO, still love you. Please do not let me loose this feelings cause I felt it's fading. Please. Show me that you love me. Pull me back from this hole... Please tell me that you are the one. If you don't pull me back up, I rather hurt myself every night like what I'm doing. Waiting for the day to come. The day of death.

Unhappy Events

What should I do when I'm not happy? Have I ever been happy these days? Friends comparing my appearance, close friend not turning up for outing as planned, friends who talk bad about another friends... I feel like I'm on a stage acting out a play following a script written by someone unknown. So many problems. How to settle all when it comes all in a bunch? Where else can I go to relieve all these???? Sigh!!!!!!!

No More Complains

Today was a really bad luck day or is it not? Woke up & heard a message about my colleague couldn't attend work due to not well. I did not hesitate but to get ready to go work. Can say sometimes I do love working. Especially it eats up my free time plus..... money comes in to me. But then, lacking of staff is already a disaster. Having an accident while working is worst than an event of so called "2012" which they thought it may end the world. Halfway working I was being knocked by 1 of my colleague & whole bowl of hot soup poured to my hand. OUCH!!!!! SSSHHRRRRR!!!!! DAMN HOT!!! But then, 1 of them helped me by applying salt on it. Says that it help prevent blisters. Well, gotta wait till tomorrow only can find out. Maybe like what they said that I'm a little "pussy". Sorry for being rude but that is what they mean about sissy in a polite term. It was pain & it made my tears out from my eyes. Plus, having a nose bleed at the same time which I guess it was not normal. However, for them, it's just a minor injuries. Nothing much to care about. Probably in working industry, "PAIN" does not exist. If you are in pain, you are a "pussy". So, a small cut, a serious burn or not, a knocked, a twist or whatever, is not a pain. Set this into your mind, Nicz. But of course only death is what matters to them which you won't consider a (not gonna mention that word again...). Tsk tsk tsk, something tells me that you wanna hear about my love life??? Haha.... Guess I really don't wanna say it out cause, well, it really hurts my feelings. No one will care either I think. So, let it be. Gotta sleep now. Panda eyes is getting worse & worse... Sigh.... Blogging again next time... Bye....