Hate Being Sick

Last Saturday had high school librarian gathering. They invited most of the ex-librarians but only 2 showed up. All the teachers were glad to see us back. Not all of course but the ones whom are close to us. Unfortunately I had to leave early cause had team building in the college for the Wine Pairing event. The activities started at 3pm & ended at 5pm. Had fun during the activities. Again my group won the 1st place since the previous event which is "A Night with the Phantom".
Yesterday, I went to 1 Utama with my mom. Accompany her shopping & also bought a new jacket cause my previous jacket has been used since last year & not washed yet. Kinda dirty though. Now I finally got a new jacket & the previous 1 can be wash. In the evening, I felt my stomach really uncomfortable. In addition, I felt very cold though my air-cond is not on & also whole body ache. I suspected I'm going to be sick soon. When comes to after dinner, I suffered on my bed. My whole body is like not listening to me. It just felt pain until I don't feel like moving a muscle. My dad brought me to the clinic & the doctor said I was food poisoned & had minor fever. Luckily I went to clinic early or else have to admit hospital. After taking the medication, I went to bed. But I couldn't sleep. My mind is like still active imagining a lot of things. Woke up a few times vomiting & diarrhea. Just this morning I can have a good sleep. The whole day today I felt so tired & sleepy. I had being sick. Lots of things I couldn't do. Until now, my body is still weak. The doctor asked me to rest for 2 days to recover. Hopefully I can go back to college on Wednesday.

Dramas During the Weekend

The drama I mentioned yesterday, was actually a complete series till I watched the episode 4 today. I did not expect it'll end like that. Must a true love be sacrificed to save one another? There are lots more love story in this world which we haven't seen. But I rate this drama 5 out of 5. I love it.
Other than watching dramas, of course I did some homework. Can't consider as a homework nor an assignment. Just I have to compile all the proposals from my group members to become 1 complete proposal. Hopefully this time will not have any mistakes after the discussions during the presentation.
In the afternoon, I went to have lunch with my family then bought some new DVDs. So far I've watched 1 movie today which is "Laughing Gor - A Turning Point". It's about an undercover cop in the triads whereby he has to face all types of obstacles either with his triads mates or the police cadet. Difficult decisions made in every move & he succeeded it in the end. The ending again did not disappoint me at all. I wonder how do all the directors have such a creative & knowledge in so many types of characters in this world. I think it's not easy being a movie director at all compared to actors or actresses. I remember it was once happen to me that I have to be so called a spy. Not really in action pack those type but just among friends. It's already past years ago. Don't feel like mentioning it. It's a bad memory which I made a big mistake. Anyway, more movies to watch but 1st thing 1st, I have to complete my proposal now.

Time is Ticking

The whole afternoon I've been watching a Korean drama named "All This Love". It's a story about a guy & a girl who love each other but both have sickness & dying soon. The guy work as gangster while the girl is a singer going to be. She fainted while the guy was stucked in a building collapsed. Both of them were sent to the same hospital. It wasn't revealed to anyone but they both knew that 1 day, either 1 of them will go first. This is where their love begins. I borrowed this series from the library. Unfortunately is until episode 4. Probably next week I'm going to speedy or popular bookstore to see if they got sell. Then I'm getting 1 copy of it for myself.
In the evening, I went for a dinner at the Herbalife company with my family. There were 1 coach talked to me about my health. He was happy that the product helped me to reduced my HBP but he was shocked at the same time. He said there is 1 indicator that I'm having a "time bomb" in my body currently. I forgot what was it but the normal ratings suppose to be in between 1 to 9. I'm at the rate of 12 currently. My other indicators was fine except this. If I don't start doing something about it, I may fall anytime soon. People may think I'm stupid in believing all these but what if it's true? Do I blame them for not believing me? It made my parents worry more now. Sigh... Why have I become like that. Thanks to my urge of eating non-stop. Sometimes I don't feel like eating but where can I go without my friends? They all for sure have to eat & I'll always say "yes" to the question 'Wanna go eat?'. Why can't I say no? There are so many more things I haven't done yet. How I wish my fate is the same as the guy from that drama. I want to really find "the one". Maybe is not time yet but I know that day will come. I may be desperate for 1 but I'm happy for those who found theirs. I wish them stay happy & together forever. My previous relationship wasn't really a relationship. To me, probably the relationship was just like bro & sis. But anyway, that was a few years back. I now consider myself don't have ex-relationship before. So why worry? No use thinking back.

Party & Cuts

Halloween party at college tonight was fun. Never had so much fun before. Didn't know I could at least dance for the 1st time. Though it's not quite good but I'm having fun throughout the whole time. Reached home already, slipped while bathing & got several cut on my wrist. Lucky it's not at the vein part. If not I'll ended up in a hospital now. This whole week damn unlucky. Got cut at my finger during cooking class, got a small cut just now while shifting tables here & there & finally got cut at wrist. Sigh... That's why I believe,'Accidents Can Happen Anytime at Anywhere to Anyone'. It has proven this week for my self. French assignment date due coming up. Gonna have to try finish it during this weekend.

Never Ending Assignments

Due to so many assignments to do, I couldn't get enough sleep these days. On Wednesday was my day to present my group's F&B proposal. We procrastinated & this is what happen. After the practical class on Tuesday, we stayed back & tried to complete as many as possible. Unfortunately, we couldn't finish. My friend decided to over night at my house to complete her group as well. It was the second time I did not sleep even an hour for the assignment. The next day presentation went quite well. There wasn't much correction to do. After that, as usual, went for a nap during IT class.

Unexplained

10.50pm now. I haven't even start my research yet. Out of sudden, I feel like crying. I feel a whole lot of me empty. I couldn't cry out. What was I thinking? Am I too tired? I can't go to sleep now. Haven't even start my research yet. How can a hotelier give up so fast? But why am I feeling so sad? Why do i keep thinking? Why the word "DIE" is in my head again? T.T

Not a Good Day

Early morning woke up did some sandwiches & went out late from house. Car petrol ran out but the petrol refill machine doesn't accept my petrol card. Have to come out with Rm10 to pay first. Was very late about 7.30am but unfortunately there were so many parking spaces still available. Weird... Theory classes were normal today but felt kind off sleepy. Probably my mind wasn't sleeping while I'm sleeping. This is true as what my doctor told me. But luckily my HBP had decreased till 148 which is a big improvement. I don't know if the Herbalife which helped me or the pills. But anyways, I'm feeling much better in terms of my health. During lunch, I thought just eat my sandwich would be enough. But I don't know why I got the urge of spending my money. Why can't I just stop eating so much. No idea how to do so. After lunch, as usual practical class. Do I really feel better being alone like before? Some said I've changed but I felt like it's just a script from a drama which I'm acting. Some were being nice to me but on the other hand, taking advantage from me. Some were starting to gossip about me which I'm having a girl friend. Is it wrong to have a girl as a close friend? Now I understand the feeling of being gossiped by other people. If I have a wish to make for today, I wish I can't talk so the words will not hurt any one's feeling. If I'm too excited, I'll talk a lot. If I'm down, people may think I want to take their pityness. Why when we are feeling the way we feel, they say we are acting? As days goes by, I don't seem to understand the world anymore. 1 really really bad thing I did today. Not very bad though but I felt bad. There is always a limit while talking to people. Through their ranking as friends, lecturers, parents, officers or anyone. I can never stop hurting people's feeling unless I seal my mouth. Should I? Will they feel happy if I do so?