Had Enough

Been busying packing up & arranging things in my new room. Other than that have been helping kitchen doing pastry for the next semester & hanging out with friends. Finally my room has been done arranging & ready to be officially my new room. Hehe... The PD trip that was suppose to be on January unfortunately has been cancel. Kinda sad but then it could possibly helped me saves up my money for the next trip. I believe new year eve as in tomorrow will not have plan again. Seems like there were some conflicts which I do not wish to speak. Probably going down alone for the countdown. I really really dislike staying at home celebrating a special annual event. It made me as if I'm not informed about the updates. I don't understand why do people keep thinking so much whether to go or not. He will wait for her but he didn't know that she is also waiting for him to decide. So when will this gonna end if there were 10 person & all of them are doing the same thing? This will only cause an event to cancel. Sigh... Used to it already. Non of the planned event work out. If it does, it will not work out so well. Since then, I've decided. Whether or not they are hesitating, I'm going on with the plan except having to overnight. I've had enough with this see 1st, maybe, think so, or whatever crap. Do it spontaneously at least can make my day.

Plan Not Worked Out

Today suppose to watch Alvin & the Chipmunks 2 with family. Unfortunately the tickets were fully booked & I wans't feeling well. Stupid sinus attack my nose again. Hate it so much. Feel like stabbing myself now & relieve from the flu. Planned to buy the chipmunks soundtrack & the New Moon novel. Got the CD but the novel were sold out. I just only finish reading twilight & I can't continue the next 1 coz there weren't any left in the bookstore except the Motion Picture version. I wanted the originals 1. Sigh... Anyway gotta go back & continue shifting my things with my stupid flu...

Lonely Christmas Eve

It was christmas eve & I was suppose to go out with my friends. Unfortunately this year I have to celebrate lonely christmas. All of them were busy & had planned with their gang. Well, I was too late to ask them out I guess. Whole day of christmas eve I just shift my things to my new room. Actually I'm changing room with my grandma coz she's too old to walk the staircase up & down. So it should be easier for her to sleep downstair as she would not need to climb up & down. So tiring but worth. I got more space & cupboards to keep my junks. Later then had dinner with family in Secret Recipe just to celebrate christmas eve. The food was good but the service was... Anyway we enjoyed our meals.

7 Days in China

It's been 7 days in China for holiday. The weather there is can say quite cold which is about 9 to 15'C. Went to Disneyland, ocean park, Macau's Senado Square & Ruins of St. Paul's & finally shopping mall in Zhu Hai. Had quite a lot of fun taking pics with disney characters. Bought so many gifts for myself. Feel a bit regret the last time I did't buy the Chip & Dale's character merchandise. It was so difficult to find them until I have to go all the souvenir shops there & only 2 shops available for these items. This is the 3rd time I went to Disneyland & finally I get a chance to watch the amazing musical fireworks of Disneyland. In Ocean Park, we watched fishes as usual. There were dolphin performance throughout the day. They were so good till everyone felt so hard to believe that they can do those. After the Ocean Park, we went to the mountain hill & visit the Madame Tussauds. Most of the actor & actresses were wax crafted & were put there. They made them look so real till you don't even know whether they are real or not. The night is so cooling. Though I like cold weather but I have to admit I can't stand it. Most of the time I have to stay indoor to prevent getting freeze. The rest of the days we went shopping in Ladies Market. It's a name of the street whereby it looks like Chow Kit Road in KL. The named Ladies doesn't means they sell all ladies stuff. There were phone accessories, handbags, bags, clothes & a lot of unique stuff. That is the only place where you shop till you drop. We gave up shopping there in the evening coz our feet can't stand it. There aren.t any cheap reflexology there too. So we have to bear with it. In Macau, there were less sightseeing except the famous Ruins of St. Paul's & Senado Square which looks like an outdoor shopping mall. The Zhu Hai shopping mall wasn't nice to shop at all. Mostly handbags, junk foods & electronics. For the 1st time we went shopping for 20 minutes & gave up. Before we were there, we had to go through so many immigration custom. Their attitude summore is like never go to hospitality school before. No 'thank you' at all. But can't really blame them la. Maybe they weren't educated before other than just check & stamp. Other than these we just eat & eat & eat non-stop. I think I gonna have phobia of eating pork already. Breakfast, lunch, dinner only eat pork chop rice, pork chop burger, pork pau, sweet & sour pork rice, pork chop breakfast set. OMG!!!! ALL PORK!!!! But I couldn't resist it coz I used to like eating pork & now I don't feel like it. Reach home the 1st thing I did was on my lap top & login to facebook. Haha... It's been a week I didn't touch my com & I really miss it. Pictures will be uploaded to my facebook when I'm done packing.

Do You Think ... ?

It's been few days since I ignored my parents. When they are off to work, I'm still in my dream. When they are going to sleep, I'm on my way back from outside. Can say I did not even saw them for these few days. Was it a cold war I'm playing with them? "Do what you like that can make you happy so you won't feel so emo". I wanted to do something I like but you restrict me. Then what you want me to do now? Do you think I like being emo? All my friends have been saying, "why you so emo today?" Do you think I'm happy when they say that? Is not I'm emo when I show that expression. When I have nothing that can impress me with then what type of expression you want me to show? A fake smile to show that I'm always happy? Isn't it similar to a play in a drama where you have to act the expression out? If it is, then for sure it is proven, this world is actually an act of fake human being expressions. "Why you want to go now where you have chance in future?" Do you think I can live that long? I've not been following doctors advice. All I'm doing now is just have to maintain my blood pressure & prevent from increasing it. Day by day you make me do things I don't wanna do, do you think it helps my blood pressure? I don't even know if I could live that long to see the world ends. Human beings may survive now & might leave the world any time. While we suffer with this can't that can't, why don't we just live happy for it? Do what you like. Then there is no regretness. Do you think I like the feeling of just saying hello, good morning, good night & asking money from you? It's creating a gap between us. Everyone has got their own attitude. Since they can't change it, then why not cope with it? All you need to know is I can easily ignore people whom I don't like. So be it!

I'm Pissed.....

It was just only I checked my blood pressure. Just after checking, he said "You are not going to go out late by next week onwards". I felt so angry. I felt like telling out that I don't care about Why can't just let me lead my own life? I for sure will not have time to do things I suppose to do. Everyday, every hour, every minutes I'm occupied with my college stuffs. How I can find time to save my own life? Nic do this, Nic do that, Nic go here, Nic go there. Just then, she came down & talked to me. Before that I felt like shouting at them. I wanted to say out all the four letters words. But I can't. I know it's wrong. I just have to pull it back & swallow back into my heart. Out of sudden, I really felt like crying it out. There are just too many things in my thoughts. Why do I have to think so much? What is it so much things to think more than what adults are thinking? Since you all want me that way, I'll stay in room, not going for any practices, not going for trips, not going to even outside to buy stuff. Then I'll heal from it right? So u all got it. Don't come say it's just an advice. I'm sick of it. I'm pissed right now & 1 word I wanted to say out long time ago. Just F****** mind your own businesses!!!!!!!

Exams over, Boring holidays are Up.....

Exams finally over. Holiday is another boring period. What can I do at home? Watch TV? No new shows. DVD? Have to buy new movies. Hanging out with friends? Saving money, spend less. In conclusion, stay at home. 1 word is gonna haunt me for the whole month; BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!