I think confessing to her probably was a mistake. We weren't as close as before where we could talk whatever. It's true about "never ask, never know" but some things are meant to be kept for some reasons. I can't believe I'm a person easily influence by people. Why can't I make my own decision? Some how I felt we were more like a stranger now than just a normal friend. Some actions made me felt uncomfortable. I've change my way of talking. The barrier between us are stronger. I don't understand why would it be like this? Was I'm the problem? I thought of drinking with my friends who had the same problem with me but does it work? As in forgetting things. Movies are just a story. Totally different than reality. Lately I've been going home late. Just trying not to think about it. I felt myself so stupid of doing what I'm doing now. Should I continue what I'm doing now? Is it better to keep this barrier? 3 sems to go. Time passes fast. Time changes reality. I believe I'll end this here before it gets too deep. If there were anything else that I wanna say, it'll not be in this blog.
