I though I'll get what I wanted. I thought there was still hope. I thought I did the right thing. I did not give up. I waited. I meant what I said. I listened to you all while I was thinking about it. It seems like it all ended up getting nothing. The minute I heard what she told me, I entirely drop onto a chair. I knew this would happen. I knew the ending would be bad. I knew I'm not worth for her. Even I ask myself, if she has accepted me, what will I do? If she asked me why do I love her, what would be the reply? I'm giving up in looking for relationship after this happened. Everyone said life has to go on. I have to agree but I'm moving on alone. I don't wanna get hurt again. I've had enough of this. I don't know how to face tomorrow's life. I did not even realize I've used up the RM50 that I've not been eaten since last Monday. Drinking does not give me any effect for now. My thoughts were running all over my head as I was driving home. With the jam & traffics. I banged into another car. But it wasn't bad. I have no choice but to pay RM100 as for the repair to the person. If I would have stay longer in the coffee shop, I don't think this will happen. I'm broke. I lost the feeling of love. I'm useless. I've done what I did & the answer had replied back to me. It was an ugly ending to me. Cried at some time but was wondering why did my tears pulled back itself. Was it cox not worth crying for her rejecting me? Was it cox I've lost too much tears. If only I went late 1 sem. If only I don't met her. If only I did not tell her, then none of this might happen. I want to be alone for these few days. Just leave me alone.
