I've never been so down since 2010's new year. I have to admit. I liked a girl before my previous sem break. I don't know if I really like her or was just too desperate to get a gf. After some observation I've made, I believe we can't have a good future. Though may have lots of similarities but there is still just 1 thing which I can't confess it out. Friendship of us can be good 1 day but not the next weeks. Today, I found out that we have a lot of differences. I think it's better not to let her know about this feeling of mine than to create both of us unhappy. Some things are better to keep in heart than to sing or cry it out. Before it gets deeper, I've decided to see her less. If not, I could just lost control of myself & tell it out. I can't let it happen. It can never happen. Never... All I can do now is back to the old me, the old me of staying alone, where less social makes me think less. The more I blend in, the more thoughts runs in my head. If I could only turn back time, if I had taken care of what I had a few years ago, none of these will happen.
