I felt that after I did what I've regret to do so... Many gossips are going on in my college. I felt pressure. All these are keeping me distance to all that I've known. I felt like as if I'm slowly losing of becoming part of them. All these things had made me to 1 thought. Should I stop college? Not complaining about assignments. Just that I'm losing my social life day by day. What they said it's true. I've changed. I've been missing for practices just to stay away. I've been alone wondering around just to stay away. Why is Nic so stupid? Do you know that staying away from problems is the most stupid thing to do? I'm going crazy soon for talking to myself most of the time. Does it worth crying everynight thinking about my stupid confession? Have I decided to stop college & go back to my old life? The life which I hang around malls, yam cha with high school mates, window shop alone. Feeling headache now & before. Feeling like killing myself from the balcony I used to go. If I can't take it anymore, then this will be the last..... Not gaining attention or anything. But want to be alone....
