Back from the Break... Comes Another Emoness...

Dear readers... You must have been thinking why so long I have not been posting here. But I guess I will start back continuing my blog. Having a relationship was what I wanted long ago. There are a lot of things that I feel not satisfied. Probably it was my problems. Having a partner staying close to you all the time needs a lot of understanding. We need to know each others likes & dislikes, getting to know the family background & all sort of stuffs. It's like another step to study other than career. Is it a way of getting through life? After all this time, I found out that there are a lot differences. I felt it hard to getting well with it especially our interests. There are things I really love to do but she won't be able to accompany me doing it. Most of the plan has been canceled. These were the times I've been feeling very very sad not to mention I'm back being emo again. I tried to give way & let time makes us better but as I moved on, things are getting hard to control. I don't wanna lose this relationship but how can I move on? Can please teach me what should I do? I don't even dare to tell her that I'm feeling all these as she may think I'm a useless person. But on the other hand, I am useless right? How often I made her happy compare to ended up quarrel? SHould I really find ways talking to god? I heard some of my friends say reading bible can help opens up someone's mind. Is it true? What should I do?????!!!!!!!!!